Escape

  They were everywhere.  Fear had taken over me. Sweat poured in channels all over me. The sound of their words, thoughts were overwhelming. I couldn’t take it anymore. I shut my eyes and ears and ran, just ran, as fast as I could, as far as I could.

  When I was sure that no sound remained, I stopped. Relief swept over my body, I gasped for breath and slowly opened my eyes. Horror struck me, there they were. Silent as death, faces blurred, watching me with cold, blank eyes. I felt my breath leave my body.  I mustered up enough strength again and ran.

  Up ahead I saw an enclosure. I scrambled into it and finally breathed a sigh of relief. I couldn’t see all those apparitions smiling a triumphant smile.

  Alone…I was alone. Finally, that’s what I had wanted…right?

  Now I walk too fast sometimes,

  Sometimes I laugh too loudly,

  I turn up the music volume to a deafening level…just to shut myself out.

  I want to hurt myself

  The burning feeling of pain, I want it…just to distract myself.

  I want to wake up suddenly, in a new place…just to feel fear.

  I struggle every moment, all the time,

  Closed spaces scare me, so do wide open spaces,

  Now there is no escape, I know it…after all how can I escape from myself?